Life and Death

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  Posted by americanhellcat1 January 23, 2012 - Filed in Personal Journal - 449 views
  

  As I sit here and think about life and death. I try to focus on the good memories of those who have left. That is hard to do sometimes though, especially when they have been murdered, because some idiot wasn't paying attention to the road, or because someone decided to end the life of another by shooting them. It is hard to focus on good thoughts when someone you loved was murdered at the hands of an evil person. It is even harder to focus on the good when that evil person hasn't been caught, and is still out there living and breathing our air. I have tried to keep my faith. It is a struggle. I have cursed God so many times.... and then I say I am sorry. I wonder though.... am I really sorry? I am mad. I get mad at God.... and I wonder is he really there? How could God let a child be murdered... Why doesn't he save the good people? I have asked him this question many times. He has never answered me. I am losing faith. I still believe in the word of God, because i think the bible has wonderful teachings, and it is a foundation to build upon. It teaches us right from wrong. I am losing faith though... I don't understand why God does not stop the evil that lurks in the souls of man.